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Re: Life and death

Posted by Thinker on November 29, 2009 at 06:40:22

In Reply to: Re: Life and death posted by Farmer on November 29, 2009 at 02:22:56:

It's interesting that you would like to be alone when you die. Perhaps I will follow up on that vein at Journeys some time.

Yes, I do know some celebrities and occasionally mingle with them. Some are international and some just famous on the local scene. If you know about the six-degree theory, I am separated from many famous people by two or three degrees. But I didn't know hardly anyone before and during my time in TF. I really was a nobody when I was in.

There were already a lot of preconceptions of who I was before I even joined, and these prejudices just stayed with me throughout my membership. There were very narrowly-defined roles I was allowed to pick from, who I was allowed to be, so I was never allowed to be me or reach my full potential, so they never saw what I was really capable of. In a way I am thankful for that, because who I am now had nothing to do with them or their holding my hand along the way. I was denied, supressed, stripped down, forced to function as a much-lesser being.

As a couple, they really did try to stop us from leaving. I was always in relationships which TF idealized in some way. In the end, even though I wasn't much of anybody, it was a big loss for them when we left, because we were quite visible and influenced a lot of people to leave too.