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In Reply to: not seeing abuse posted by porceleindoll on December 11, 2003 at 21:36:57:
you are bringing back a lot of awful memories. but you are right, my daughter, who is still in the group, swears up and down that the children were never, ever abused. Then she looks at me square in the eye and says, "Mom, you know that." See, she doesn't understand just what child abuse is, plus she really didn't "see" any and probably doesn't remember many of those letters we remember, which are now stircken from the homes or under lock and key.
Even though I didn't join until 21, I was still impressionable. I didn't understand these things about sex and all. I was pretty ignorant and being that it was the 60s the dawning of the love generation, it seemed that we were opening up a new freedom and I didn't understand that Berg was taking this new freedom to pedophile and criminal levels. Sure, we wanted to be free from the churches and thier stuffy way of restricting anything and everything but I didn't understand that Berg was using that desire to take us into criminal elements. I remember when I left, I encrolled my children in the Big Bros. Big Sisters program. Before they could get their mentor, we all had to sit and listen to the counselor talk about private parts, what was acceptable, what was not, what to do if someone touches a child, etc., etc. Boy, what an eye opener. All of a sudden it dawned on me how duped I had been into thinking that unbridled sex was liberating. It was like someone turned the light on. I had never been told those things before, I guess I had lived a sheltered lifestyle and never had to deal with it or heard about anybody getting in trouble for it.
I was like you though, I hated the whole switching partners thing, FFing, multiple partners, etc., etc. I managed to hide out for a whole year from the sharing schedule. Probably more of why I was always in trouble. See, I got to the point where I wanted to commit suicide, I saw no other way out. It was my children that kept me alive. I stayed alive for them. They still keep me alive.
