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In Reply to: what can the FGs do seriously? posted by porceleindoll on December 08, 2002 at 15:59:45:
It is a moral dilemma that we face when confronted with the opportunity to do a potentially damaging expose of the fam yet at the same time expose our innards to an indifferent public. You are right in saying that if you were single and unattached, and it was just yourself involved, noone else would get hurt, then you'd probably go ahead with it.
I was faced with this opportunity some time ago when my story came out in a national daily in my country. A broadcast network picked it up and wanted to do a big expose-documentary on the group. Much as my justice-seeking (though at that time I must admit it was more revenge than justice) activist self desperately wanted to, my mother-protective instinct prevailed. I could not bear to put my innocent child at risk over my own burning desire to pursue yet another “cause”. When I left the fam I vowed to put my child’s happiness and his future first and that remains my ultimate motivation. Anything getting in the way would have to be discarded or reworked at best. I could not bear to put my family and friends through yet another round of emotional and psychological pain and torture. Not to mention all the negative repercussions associated with exposing such a sensational issue as a sex cult in a conservative Catholic country. Though they have all rallied behind me when the story broke, and expressed support for any crusade I may embark upon, I didn’t think any of them deserved to be hurt again. So with much regret, I had to turn down the opportunity.
It was not cowardice on my part but a more compelling moral responsibility towards my loved ones. Today I actively seek ways and means to expose the group without compromising my position, and I wholeheartedly support those who have more liberty to be more radical. Admittedly, it is half as effective but I am convinced it is for the best for now. Perhaps later when my son is grown and is less vulnerable I will take on a more radical approach. Being older and hopefully wiser, I will be more potent, not weaker. In the meantime, I focus on my personal recovery and my personal successes in the world that was taught to be hostile towards us. And that for now is the best thing I can do seriously.
