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In Reply to: Re: We were all victims of a manipulative and controlling posted by Sara on November 07, 2002 at 15:14:33:
Some of us did speak up. Some of us did try to help ease the situation. I even stuck around for years trying to make things better. I had to work from within the F. system, within the limitations of the F. If I got too vocal or outwardly enraged, I would risk getting ex-commed or put in a position where I couldn't make a difference at all. Believe it or not, that is actually one of the reasons so many of us FGAs stayed as long as we did, WE WERE AFRAID TO TURN OUR BACKS ON PEOPLE WE CARED FOR, just like you. Did you ever think of that?
A few days after we left, my wife cried horribly for the children we could no longer help. When we decided to take action against the F. by reporting them, we were afraid of what would appen to the children. This was even before the Argentinian raids. It wasn't the authorities we were worried about, as much as the F. running and going under cover and making the F. children's lives even more miserable and restricted.
Here is a post I made some months ago on this board:
One of the most disturbing things I ever saw was the way kids in the Fam. were told they were adults at the magic age of 12. They entered some kind of nebulous zone where they were supposed to be adults but weren't. Berg had said that they could start families and have children at 12 in his Child Brides letter. As a result teenagers were never hardly given the kind of guidance and support they need for such a difficult time in their lives. In anyone's life for that matter. Remember what it was like to be a teenager?
There was an Italian mother and child, the child which the Family called an "adult" since she was 16. At that time, hardly any Fam. children were older than 12. The mother was asked to live in a different home because she was an FFer. The daughter was asked to live in a home where there were many younger children, and her duties were child care, childcare and Child-care of course. Even when out postering she was watching the children.
This girl had severe emotional problems. She was missing her mother terribly, but she was not allowed to see her. Reasons cited were she was an adult and needed to learn to grow up and so on. She was also rapidly turning into a woman but was emotionally under developed. The home was too busy going through purges, enforced breakings and excorcisms to think about her problems. It was very isolated from other homes. There was no one around she could relate to. The children were several years younger than her, and she certainly wasn't an adult no matter what she was told. She tried to develop an unnatural relationship with one of the boys, then about 12. Needless to say that didn't work out very well. She was made to take care of the shepherdess' baby.
One day we found out she was feeding the baby sweet milk, putting sugar in the milk. When asked not to do it, she said, "but he won't want to drink it if it's not sweet!" If you know anything about psychology, you can see the problem I am describing. Another time, she told an adult (a real adult) brother who had just talked to her about her problems and conflicts, that she had prayed about it and they should solve the problems by sharing. Thank God this brother had the decency to understand that it would be an unequal relationship very much like screwing a mentally underdeveloped person, and never took the offer. She had a body in full bloom with huge tits and everything a horny guy wants.
Well, this girl was left with her problems for a while more, pining after her mother. until some shepherd said, "You are old enough, maybe you should start FFing. Maybe that will help you spend more time with your mother. Don't you want to be like her?"
One year later, I saw that girl again. She was at a fellowship giving glorious mimicked testimony about getting pregnant and having a "Jesus baby."
I was in shock!!!
She was thrilled to finally be fitting in somewhere. Now she could join the ranks of unwed mothers with children from unknown fathers. Now she could have a child of her own to fuss over, and she wouldn't have to take care of other people's children, just her own. She was trying so hard to be an adult, to fit in somewhere, and the role models around her were just disgusting. She was trying so hard to validate herself, and Berg taught that a woman's role was to make babies.
You have to have been there to understand what I am describing. This was an emotionally under-developed girl with a woman's body, playing mommy, and proud to be a whore for Jesus like mommy. There would no doubt be a price to pay for allowing such a situation.
She was just a baby herself.
