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In Reply to: the spell of sex posted by porceleindoll on September 24, 2002 at 17:49:17:
sex was definitely used as a hook within the Family. You will notice that in many cults sex is often used this way by the leader or leaders. Study cults and you will see the similarities.
I had one incident where a leader told me I needed to have sex with him when I was very upset and angry about something. I know it was a way to get me under control and obeying. It creeped me out and it still does. And, yes, all those sexual indescretions and manipulations still affect my emotions and how I treat men in particular. My present husband will say I'm not always very responsive or affectionate. A lot of times I just want to be alone. I can really understand where you are coming from. And to think that at your young age the people that you were the closest to were not really there for you is hard to take and hard to accept.
I saw a show where this young girl (13 yrs) had been tricked into running off with someone she met online. She had developed an on-line relationship with him and soon ran away with him, but he was using her and abusing her. He was taping their sex and using it for a child porn ring he had established. When her mother finally caught up with them, the damage had been done. Even though the girl is in therapy and sees how she was abused, she claims she still loves the guy and cares about him. It's hard to separate emotions when at a tender age you were taken advantage of. This guy was so convincing, yet he had many young girls and even women he had convinced that they were the only one and that he really loved them. Some men in the F. were exactly like that and very adept at convincing the women that they were so in love with them. Hey, if it worked for one, it would work for the others and they are right. I heard once that when Paul Papers (Gary) was travelling around that he had a love interest in every home he stayed at. He was never wont for a relationship, it was well known.
Sometimes I think we women are really stupid and are too weak. I see older women at concerts making fools out of themselves and it disgusts me. We don't need to be like that. We need to be comfortable with who we are and not desperate for someone to control us or want us and to throw ourselves at the opposite sex as if we will take anything and believe anything. There are a lot of emotions involved, it's a touchy subject.
