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In Reply to: At what point did you leave? posted by porceleindoll on September 09, 2002 at 20:14:34:
I left as a result of burnout. I thought I was wrong when I left and that I just needed to get away. But the straw that broke the camels back was probably reading about Marry Time, and the Schools to come. And the big push towards India which is not a place to raise kids by faith without real support. I had already been in Indonesia. My kids were nearing that age (school or campsite) and I had had so much separation from them already. Also, because of my own past, that was a very scary proposition altogether. I couldn't picture my kids in a school, getting married at 12 or being considered an adult at that age, and I was also struggling with the fact that their education was so lacking. I always had this sense from things that I had seen of the family using people, but thought that was a wrong thought.(From the devil) I left on impulse and felt wrong, but it was not hard at that point to make the break once I was out. Getting that family out of me is a process. I did not have support or therapy, but had three kids who only had me to depend on. So survival was first on the list. I believe that if there were places where I could safely have gone at vulnerable points within the family, that I may have left before. That is why I want to help anyone considering leaving the family to connect to a site that can help them. And they are out there!
