Posted by Annoni Mouse on January 23, 2004 at 19:01:22
And I clicked with her immediately. She knew EXACTLY where I was coming from and what I had experienced. I was impressed. She also brought up something I never thought about before. When she found out I had joined the COG full time at 21, she said that because we develope into our 20s, I was still developing. So, after I left and reverted to my prior cult self, there was a big gap missing from that development. I was still in my 20s in my thoughts and had not grown normally and then if you chuck all those thoughts and growth process, you're stuck back there when you first joined. That causes a lot of problems. She was making so much sense and validating all my feelings without me hardly talking. I'm so happy I finally found a therapist who knows. She also said that with spiritual abuse like this, because I was coerced to do things I didn't want to do out of fear, that it was the same as rape. And the fact that I lost my faith because of the spiritual abuse, that it was another whammy that left a deep wound. I'll let you know how things progress. I never went before because I couldn't afford it, but I'm going to go into debt if I have to because I really feel that I need it.