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Posted by NoName on August 23, 2010 at 22:05:38
In Reply to: Re: Trying to understand posted by workerbee on August 23, 2010 at 04:51:08:
What you describe is very familiar. Our ages are different but I have had similar experiences. I was 36-7 when I left and two children at the time. I also walked away from all whom I loved and understood well that I would never had the chance to contact them again, or be understood by them. Sad to say, these latest changes didn't change anything about that. Not because I don't want to have contact with them but because they don't want to have real, meaningful, open contact with me or those who think differently. They don't know the meaning of love.
I believe in God too, it is a miracle, as you say. I understand that too because I think even in The Family some people do not really believe in God. At least not in the Family God.
But going back to legacy of the oppressed life we had in the cult I'd say that the best thing I have found is to remember my present and carve out a future that denies them any power over me and my thoughts.
It is difficult at times because I miss many things about that life, and some people in particular. It hurts but I try to love even more to those I can love and let me love them. It was only then that I learned the meaning of unconditional love.
It is hard but somehow it has helped me. I know this sounds simplistic but it has helped me. Sometimes I am taking for a fool by some who don't understand but I push myself to not care even as it makes me feel cheated. I hope it helps if you try it. A fraternal hug.
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