do I belong here?

I was brought up in a group that branched off from CoG and merged with a charismatic church (when I was quite young) in the UK. I grew up hearing Bergs name and teachings often, though as I got older the group was not officially CoG/TF they followed many of the same values but differed in some ways too. i was physically and sexually abused by my father and others in the group. i grew up in fear and spiritual confusion. i was always told i was a sinner. i was regularly beaten with a stick or a shoe i don't even remember what for. i was encouraged to do sexual things with my siblings and cousins. i got out when i was 14/15 because my parents left, but my dad still abused me after that and then went on to set up his own church. a lot of this was AFTER Berg supposedly prohibited sexual contact between adults and minors. i think they lie when they claim to have changed.