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In Reply to: Re: Not without my sister posted by Annie on July 14, 2009 at 11:41:56:
Annie, I really appreciate your being around...others of the "SGAs" (not much liked this term of the ones born into TF..I do that for brevity's sake) would innerly cringe to post or read here...I can understand that...that leaves for now only one sure alternative: xfamily.org
after movingon.org closed down...besides the personal blogs of course
I will not complain about your verdict, that we somehow must have been all perverts...I read /interpret it as the moral compass really showing in the wrong directions, and following it to various degrees & I am no exception to it (although that starts already in society, as society is also far from being right/perfect, millions of wrongs don't make a right either).As needy as we were in our fragile situation of joining, we didn't receive the best counsel & teaching...simply because the prophet un-beknown/suspected by us didn't know any better, without him realising it (I assume) and the "prophetic" Word of today (of him) weighed sad to say more..so they said, then the one of the past (especially in regards to Paul's letters) & with that the morality became tipsy turvey; as beginners you don't think to know better than the "prophet" (usually, unless you're on your way out)...especially since TF/Berg also exploited exegetically the sexual weakness of OT David and Salomon...the situation of Lot and his daughters, polygamy of the patriarchs, the wives for the sons of Adam & Eve etc. etc.
I had some very strong penchant/liking for esoteric, mystical...buddhistic, asian teachings &
lifestyles before joining and never had much read/understood the Bible...if I hadn't joined TF, I would have gone to India by myself, most likely...may be that would have landed me in a better situation sooner?????
In any case, I had no clue, what was right...I resented the churches and by historic records known to me superficially, they seemed pretty wrong ; wasting money on big cathedrals was wrong for me even before knowing Acts 7:48 etc.
What I mean is, we came from a fairly oversexed society of the West & thought it initially to be right, to be "liberal" in that aspect (later e.g. I thought it to be "strange", that in revelations people, including Jesus, rather seemed to be dressed, which didn't jive with my notion naked &ln;=&gn; innocence/sinless/perfect)...especially when you happen to mistake Biblical agapae for love and sex&ln;=&gn;eros, which is one of the cardinal mistakes of TF...all because Berg didn't know old Greek....I knew only one Dutch brother in TF, who had old Greek in school, he told me that it is wrong to think, that faith...in the letter faith...had anything to do with to drink in...you can look it up yourself...I myself didn't find in longer searches any link between pisteuoo and pinoo..except both starting with pi
All to say that, it would have been better if the old man had indeed studied more...you remember he stormed out of Bible school/college...insisting that you only need a few verses to evangelise....frankly, to avoid the mistakes (sins/crimes) he made, some sound studies could have helped immensely and sad to say, we didn't know better or those who knew better just left without big impact.
It's not an excuse, but one thing leads to another, besides the factors: groupdynamics/emotions ("lovebombing")...feartactics regarding backsliders...impending doom...imminent end...the great mass of gospelneglected people....these were important factors to consider, besides the : to whom else should we go?
I am glad, that many left earlier than me (89/92), I am glad, very happy, you left with turning eighteen.My respect!!!
I hope & pray you could manage to overcome some of the big damages inflicted to you in growing up in TF.I am sorry for all the bad you experienced.
I am touched by the fact/news, that you managed to retain your faith in God (Christ)...isn't that rather rare among the "children of the children"??
I hope & pray, that you can keep it that way...
be blessed.
