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In Reply to: Re: Celeste posted by MG on August 07, 2007 at 04:34:15:
Really touching post, MG. Thank you for sharing that.
Such is the nature of cults, that we become lame brains, conditioned to follow and accept, to believe that we're no good, certainly not good enough to seriously deem God's endtime prophet wrong. We were taught to cast aside our doubts for later, and to focus on winning converts. We were taught never to allow ourselves the free time to think.
One thing we have to remember is how busy we were when we were in the cult. Most of us weren't exactly sitting around on our asses doing nothing, with time to contemplate life. We were conitioned to distract ourselves with the good works of staying busy. On top of being busy with practical life as parents with a bunch of children, there was always something on our mind: monthly report, how to make ends meet, the checklist, the schedule, quotas to meet, the new wine, signs of the end, security and paranoia, visitng servants, own spiritual condition plus that of your household and sheep, etc. We were always kept on our toes, always on the edge. Every single day was a battle to survive, and we thought we were doing it all for Jesus. Our whole life of never-ending sacrifices was only worth it, we told ourselves, because of the impending return of Jesus. And how did we know He was returning in 1993? Well, God wrapped His plans all around Berg's life and death. The epitome of cyclic thinking.
No wonder we "ignored" what was going on, especially those of us who were not sexual predators by nature. We never "noticed" what was really going on because we were too busy trying to survive, perpetually trying to get our shit together. Most of us would have gotten our shit together to leave, but the last stage in that process of leaving was short-circuited by Berg's programming.
