Sin in the Camp

I've been offering up the plight of loyal people who become incredibly saddened to the point of sickness--but not outright rebellion--after getting dumped on by TF hierarchy. I've heard that such folk simply cannot accept that they are really extremely angry about being taken advantage of and shat upon. With rebellion, they fear total extinction of the self. It's a primal fear linked to a very early stage of childhood development, infancy to pre-school. I don't totally comprehend the Wrath of God as though it were a sword dangling over my head, ready to drop at any moment of disobedience. But I hear that's what it is like for the toddler who is repressed and stripped off all power to assert his or her budding sense of self.

Sorry to talk psycho-babble, but I don't know any other way to explain this stuff. It really is science, and jargon is jargon. "Budding sense of self" is easier to get than "epinepherin stimulus on developing neural structures of the frontal lobe."

I've observed and interacted at one ex-Family site or another for a period of 7+ years on the internet. It seems to me that we're only beginning to see how deeply repressed anger & sudden, uncontrollable rage work themselves out in Family relationships over a long period of time. Rick's brutal slaying of Angela Smith.

Claire Borowick can cite her bad statistics all she wants, and there will be hundreds of television viewers who know she's full of sh*t. People trained in real sociology are a dime a dozen in the general population of selfish systemites. The truth of the matter is, there are more messed up survivors & exmembers from TF than many other subcultures that we know anything about.

The talents of a bald-faced liar won't change the truth. AND it's totally bogus to compare TFI suicide statistics to the general population. WS readers: please do a review of Claire's WRONG use of population statistics. She's mincemeat if she uses that crap on a reporter with a decent bachelor's degree in political science.

What's really most frightening to me about multi-generational sins is the occurrence of uncontrolled explosive disorders, such as the one that lead to Angela's brutal slaying. I have observed abused kids in treatment go "psycho-hose-beast," as they like to call it--when the violent, destructive rage finally comes out, and they totally tear things apart. The earlier British documentary on Rick touched very briefly on the police report of the murder. These are public records, btw. Besides the blood all over Rick's hand, what realy struck me was how the police officer referred to Angela as an "elderly woman." Did anyone else catch that? I don't get the feeling that frail little Angela had a clean and easy demise, like one forceful break to the neck or a single bullet through the head.

So sad. Really, I'm not being cynical. I wouldn't want to be walking around the planet knowing I'd had something to do with generating a violent crime like that of David Zerby OR with covering up the truth about the roots and seeds of a mortal sin in the camp.