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In Reply to: Is your father still in the Family? (NT) posted by kinda gentler on September 09, 2004 at 17:30:10:
He left a few years ago, but he still thinks he was doing the 'right' thing by raising us the way he did. I'm still not sure what screw was so loose in his head that he let his 12/13 year old child work more than 15 hours a day taking care of little kids instead of getting an education. I remember when he read the 'Mene Series' to me. I nearly s--t my pants, I was so terrified. I was even more afraid of expressing myself to him though, or any overseers for that matter. He should have taken one look at that GN and hit the ground running. But he didn't. I feel like he was being selfish and more interested in fulfilling his own needs, but more importantly afraid a being a fucking man. I don't feel like I should approach him with the mile long list of things he should appologize for. And yet he has the odacity to write and say that he's done nothing wrong, in fact he's proud of how he spent the 25 years that he did in the cult. Oh well, I think it's a lost cause. I've gotten on with my life physically, I just wish I could say the same emotionally.
