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In Reply to: Re: brainwashed? posted by Raymond Shaw -- bystander on September 03, 2004 at 02:56:43:
I can only speak for myself. I'm not enough of an expert to know if this fits into the category of having been brainwashed, but I think it does. I do know that I fanatically believed Berg to be the End Time prophet of God, God's very mouthpiece, and that I had been called along with the rest of my brothers and sisters in the Family to be the saviours of the world.
Therefore some really fucked up stuff happened to me when the letter the Devil Hate Sex came out, and we got more Berg's teachings in things like the Questions and Answers pubs, along with his comments on the subject of adult/child sex in different FN's, etc.
Of course I read all this stuff and figured it’s more of God’s radical message that only the privileged elect get to hear. But the time came when I passed through a home where there were adult men in the home hoping they could have sexual "cuddle time" with my 11 yr old daughter, something that was obviously sanctioned, practised and condoned by the country’s leadership who also lived in that home. It just completely weirded me out, but instead of waking up to how wrong Berg and the Family was about all this, I thought something was wrong with me and my salvation. Berg had said to the "pure all things are pure", and if you don't have that kind of sexual freedom then you haven't been "fully cleansed by the blood of Jesus". So my reaction was to get “under condemnation” and to look at all my Huddersfields which were obviously keeping me from having that “freedom in the love of god” which would “liberate” me to engage in so-called “loving” sexual interaction with children. (Excuse me for a minute, I need to go vomit.)
So, instead of calling child protection authorities about what adults were doing in that home, I blamed myself for not being revolutionary; I can only explain this by having been brainwashed. I think there can be degrees to brainwashing. I wasn’t brainwashed to the degree that I wanted my daughter to stay overnite in that home, and I sure was relieved we had to go back to our little single family home. Thankfully what I thought was my lack of "true freedom in the spirit and love of god" was simply my conscience. Which of course also kept from ever engaging in any such abuse myself, in spite of how unrevolutionary and bound I believed myself to be.
