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In Reply to: Re: Across Generations posted by Kinda Gentler on August 08, 2004 at 14:26:23:
Hi kg. You certainly have come through alot and I appreciate your very grounded viewpoints and perspective. Like I said, you see it the way I see it for the most part. I hear what you are saying about abuses happenning that are not our faults. I should have been clearer about that particular thing when typing my first response.
Hey, wasn't it fearsome to believe that God was going to strike us dead? You surely had a bad case of that, didn't you? I, too, struggled with a bit of that when on the plane home from the field, but I got over it shortly after the plane landed. I had a dream, soon after, that I would be meeting a female evangelist that would encourage me to catch "another bus" to another field and sure enough, while dancing with Faithy at a Searcher's meeting, I shared how I seemed to have missed His highest in coming home and there she was encouraging me to go south where all good missionaries were to go. I think I could go now a do a good job cause I could go in love, whereas before, while in the Fam, I was still in need.
Having had to recover with alternate support, it would have been nice to know of it, or find it earlier, although when forsaking all I wasn't really all that good at hearing what others were trying to warn me of. I couldn't, or wouldn't, see the red flags that they could see and now I've had to eat some crow and confess that I was wrong. I think, in my case, I wasn't all that educated as to what all was available at the time either, and had the attitude of, "Ha, what do they know?" anyway.
As for Deb, I appreciate her sharing her healing journey, one of the first of many for us healers imo, and as for the quote, she was quoting someone else.
Glad you've survived and done so well at piecing things together for yourself and yes, we are ALL victims and surely the effects linger. Why, I was just thinking yesterday how the effects of high school still linger (and that was only 4 years). The Fam, for me, was thirteen and the self commitment was so very much stronger.
