When
barz {I was with Barz for a time and called him and he visited me},lost his children anad the Family was attacked a friend saW IT ON TV and told me about it and I defended the family, even though i had ben out since 78 and it was now 89. I still felt I was screwed up after all those years passed from IRFER'S Beware. I thought david was the most true pure Christian in the world which made me a condemed person. What a strong pull. I rejoined the Family at that time Whow ayee man it seemed way different. I learned lots in the next few years. Anyway I'm glad I found you and the help I needed to be honest. I felt so stressed after posting my true feelings without your support where would I be? Quiet alone and dead. It feels so good to share what you feel. After posting Boy I was looking over my shoulder and couldn't sleep thinking I blew it talking honestly about David. When you get out of the mainstream everyone will turn their back on you because you've become one of them. The weak backslider. the members are trained to plug ther ears and run the other way. So what if you were my friend not any more I have to get the scoop to see how I feel about you. That was my down fall. I put family and friend higher than the weird things happening. That makes me a weaker sister yada yada. I pity the poor on the edge drop me a line I'll try to be honest. When is the HBO Special?