In Reply to: Re: Blast from the Past (Repost) posted by Perry on June 08, 2004 at 11:31:16:
Yes, Perry (Perry, I was in the PI from 1976 - 1987, where were you?), I'm 48 and I feel like I have to go back and see who my favorite musicians are (were), "what I want to be when I grow up", get to know my siblings, my mother, and my cousins again. It makes me frustrated somtimes that I don't know my mother and sister so well. The Family took me out of that "anger
stage" at 19 years old when I wanted to leave them all and do something wild and crazy! Usually people go back to their families after a short time and share their discoveries and just keep going. But for 28 years we not only "forsook" our families, we were told to hate them and to USE them for any wealth they could pass our way.
I'm thankful that I have a full schedule for 6 days a week... but when there's a bit of a lull,
I just feel like a fish out of water. I want to get a degree in teaching and I want to learn the language of the country I'm living in... but it's so hard to bring myself to study.
I'm not bitter about my choices or even bitter against the Family... but you know... I feel handicapped... "mentally & spiritually challenged" as they say nowadays. So, "challenged" I am... and I guess all of us have to really fight to understand ourselves even more and
I thank God (the REAL God!) that you are all here to help me learn about life again!
And thanks for all the tips for our "Day of Independence"... shopping, going alone...and so on... it's so funny to read... but it's all SO TRUE!