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In Reply to: Re: The Family & Drug Use/Abuse posted by An SG on April 27, 2004 at 10:58:14:
It was the same for me, I had been so indoctrinated for so many loooong years, I was fearful to make any decisions on my own.
First off, my leaving the F. was an act of rebellion against God. I joined that cult because I thought God wanted me to, that God had called me to it, that I was serving God. I stayed for those reasons. To finally leave meant either a) I was horribly wrong b) I was rebelling against God's will. I thought it was b). But I left anyway because I did not want to raise my children in that group anymore and I didn't care what God thought about that anymore, I totally disagreed. Soooo....that was one decision. Then I had to figure out later on just what went wrong in my whole decision making process. How could i have so miserably misunderstood God's calling? After that, I no longer prayed for God to show me what to do, where to go, who to see, how to believe, what was right or wrong. I had start all over again and whew, that has and was a long hard road. I've finally come to the conclusion that life is full of ups and downs and it doesn't matter how well you plan or control your surroundings, your life, etc., there is going to be ups and downs. I just have a few more downs than most people :)
