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In Reply to: How angry are you on a scale of 1 to 10 ? posted by Jesse (rockon) on March 31, 2004 at 11:03:27:
I understand the going up and down. I am in general not angry about my whole experience but it wasn't that bad to me. On the other hand, it still has effects on my behavior and in my relationships, including my children. I have also seen how perhaps that experience may also influence my children's behavior, even though we left when they were 1 and 3.
By the same token, there are a few individuals against whom I have grudges. Yes, grudges. I don't let them take over my life anbd I would definitely not give them that much power. Besides, I am aware that even a physical expresion of that anger and grudges will not solve anything. My best revenge has been to be so free from their clutches that they don't have any way to get to me whatsoever.
In fact, they know that and that is why they fear me. It is also for that reason that they fear you, and in general they fear us, specially those of us without strings they can manipulate.
I understand your anger but knowing that they cannot touch you and that they are afraid of you is a good feeling.
What I would do to feel vindicated is to make sure I address them in public, revealing their names, as to members of that horrid social experiment. But I would do this only if I find them on my way, as a battle, not as a war when all my waking hours are devoted to think about them. I know it is difficult but getting involved in other things may help you as it did to me.
