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In Reply to: Re: Sounds like the military posted by jo on December 13, 2003 at 22:51:47:
and I remember having to stand up during end time classes because I was falling asleep. This happened to many people and you would often see half the class standing up. And if you got sick with a bad flu or cold, you still had to attend everything, it was awful. But we did it because we thought we were dedicating ourselves to God, we thought we were making the ultimate sacrifice as good soldiers in God's army. How wrong could we be?
I thought about this the other day. Yes, I admit, I made a huge, huge mistake with dire consequences. How did I get to that mistake? Where it start? It started when I prayed to God. Yes, I prayed to God and asked him to show me where and with whom should serve him with as the churches had disappointed me over and over again. I was very lost but depending on God. So, I ended up thinking God had spoken to me to join up with the Jesus People Army in Vancouver. When THEY joined with the COG (actually, the COG recruited them and they subesqeuntly joined - this is a more acurate picture), I didn't understand. However, I figured that since God had supposedly spoken to me in response to my prayers and this group was now joining the COG, then it must mean that God wanted me to now be a part of this other religious group. So, because of that idiotic mistake, I now have no faither whatsoever in praying or believing that God will answer me. So what if it took him 19 years to get through or whatever some people might say -that's an awful lot of time to waste and people to get hurt. No, I rather think that this whole idea of prayer is very misleading and I now prefer to make my own mistakes without trying to supposedly follow God. At least I know it's my thinking and my decision and I'm not putting my trust in anyone else. If God wants to show me something, well, then he can go right ahead if he sees fit, but I'm not waiting and I'm not going to try to listen to anything. Whenever I do that, worse things happen. I do better when I don't fall into that pit.
