Another question for Jules (and Albatross)

I'm an FG and I curse the TF for all the evils they are guilty of. I feel that I would be betraying my own children not to. I want to die everyday just because of the fact that I was part of such a group that abused so many children in the "name of God".

I'm not even a Christian anymore. (Please all you happy Christians, don't start preaching at me.) My children ARE my religion now and the only reason I have for living.

But regarding your recent posts, do you think you would feel differently if your own parents weren't still in the cult?