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In Reply to: Yes, very sad posted by Acheick on December 10, 2003 at 20:52:20:
Thanks Acheick. I gladly would have gone through anything myself if it meant my children were spared. I live with an incredible amount of guilt. My daughter tells me she thought she was dying when she was 8 years old because of what was happening to her. I even left them with him to babysit. My God. Its funny though, I never liked him and was always struggling with it feeling that I was a bad person. And he didn't like me either. I felt like I had caused it if you know what I mean.
I have fought back feelings that God is punishing me because I know that's what the Family would say but its hard. Not a day goes by that I don't suffer inside. I'm not saying all this to be a poor me but just to say that child abuse tears lives apart. The victims are many. I am on medication for epilepsy as well as anti depressants which I would not be able to face the world without. My fond memories of my kids childhood (which I thought were perfect)are besmirched by the knowledge that they were silent victims being exploited in the worst way. The damage done to the victims on this site and others must be repaired and the only way is for justice to be done. Even if there are no convictions it is a necessary process and will help with some kind of closure, if there can be such a thing.
Love and Peace always
Susie
