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In Reply to: What did you see? posted by Blondie on November 25, 2003 at 21:23:18:
I'm an FGA. I had to go back in my mind's eye and visualize exactly what I saw. Plus, I had to determine why I didn't think anything was wrong. I can only say this: because of the sexual teachings of Berg and how he equated them with being "revolutionary", a "soldier for Christ" wanted to be "strong", so we tried to hide any doubts or second-thoughts. Here is what I saw or did: I danced topless for a 12 year old boy on his birthday (it was considered his "coming of age" day. I had "cuddle time" with teenagers as suggested by my "shepherds" to try to keep these "troubled teens" from being so rebellous. I know of an adult "childcare worker" who used to put little boy babies to sleep by masterbating them and then in later years he confessed he was a homo. I myself danced a few times for Berg's famous videos, and each time there were either young girls and underage teens. Plus, Berg's own daughter danced on one occation the same time I did.
In my pride to be "revolutionary" I begged Keda for a date. We had a real "lesbian" date. I wanted to bring this up for anyone who is/was not "in the know" about being in the Family. To be "sexy" was to be "revolutionary" and "new-bottle".
So since "The Girl Who Wouldn't" was out... I wanted prove my revolutionary discipleship and have a lez date. I'm yukked-out remembering it. I wanted to show you how perverted our thinking became because of Berg's teachings.
So, as I do think about it... I did see the "crimes" and I admit... I was part of it. I'm ashamed to say the least. My heart goes out to the SGA's who had to live in this terrible situation.
Oh yes, I have to confirm what others have said, too... "sharing nights" usually took place in the various kid's rooms while they were supposedly asleep. If a child woke up to see what was happening, we would just continue because we figured it was "part of their training".
I'm truly truly sorry and I pray that God will somehow make your life at least liveable enough in such a way that you don't have to always be reminded of this horrible past.
