blondie

I joined the Family in 1976 in Sydney Australia and there were mostly babies and very young children. I was 17 and the home I joined in had one couple and the rest singles (50 in all) so I had very little to do with children until I had my own. Most of the problems revolved around alcohol and couple problems.

Between 76 and 82 (when I left) things changed drastically. six months after I joined I married and fell pregnant. My son was born just after Davidito so I was very aware of the new childcare revolution and followed everything that happened very closely as we all had to follow the example of the King and Queen. I tried to ignore the Davidito book and just thought it was for them and not for the masses. The thought of sucking my son's penis never entered my head and it revolted me to think of it so I never did.
When my son was born ( a few weeks before the RNR) we drifted away for a year only to rejoin in 1980 when Keda visited us to report of all the prodigals returning. She was very convincing and of course we rejoined.
Man oh man, it was sex sex sex. Two wives were the go and everything was partner swapping, escort work. Everyone was leaving to go to Asia so we packed up and went to the Phillipines with another couple. That's when the dancing videos hit the stands and that was just so wrong. I hated it. I was a bit fat at the time and it was embarrassing.

I still hadn't seen anything untoward with kids and sex apart from the nudie videos from MWM which started alarm bells ringing in my head. I ran into an ex member in the Phillipines who I had known in Oz and she told me how her daughter had been serially abused by their childcare worker from the age of 3 or 4. Her daughter was in the States I think in the care of her grandparents. I don't know the entire story very well as it was a long time ago. The most distressing stuff for me during this time was the prostitution I was coerced into which continued until I left which not only took me away from my children but put my life at risk.

Then we were shipped to Macau to live with Ho et al. Because there were older children here I began to see what was to come. Friday was Romance Night and older kids would have dates with each other and older members. There was close dancing and kissing. I didn't see any sex but I wouldn't say it didn't happen. Once I was told to get into bed with Ho's second eldest and we cuddled and kissed. I felt disgusted with myself for years afterwards and it still makes me feel sick. I started to hear of kids being separated from their parents and freaked out. That was my biggest fear without a doubt.
I planned my escape and left one year later with both my kids.
I sincerely apologise to any child that I have offended in my time in the Family. I honestly believed what I as doing was right at the time but I realise I was temporarily insane. Peace.