where I was when I received the letter

I HEAD BEEN ASKED TO LEAVE BY SHULAS PARENTS. They say her death as having something to do with the cog. I had to move from our apartment at night with the help of a friend. There was tape around where her body laid and red handprints on the wall from my children trying to wake her up. I got a new apartment and moved out. In the trial the defence brought up the fact that I was a member of the cog and i defended the Family with my own attack. Shula was stabbed 13 times and not raped. When I receiv ed the letter IRFER'S Beware I was so in need. MY first reaction. (no one knows my pain or can help) I'm on my own. I was in shock but screw it it was all meeningless compared tom the fact that I had lost the person I loved. I felt like what did I do wrong. OK Stiff upper chin here i go onto the world. My own dad didn't help me. Where is all this support of my loving family where i didn't need any help. i guess a kick in the ass from you know where made me see my wrongdoings. Now I am so ready to go.
I loved the wisdom and the word what happened? I wanted to kick the gong
Opps I got to go to job #2 730-1200 I'll try to talk later.