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In Reply to: Hello again guys posted by Kristi on May 01, 2002 at 19:00:48:
Kristi,
welcome again. This site may not be able to do much, but it is a place where you WILL find a listening ear, so vent all you need and want.
I don't know what to tell you except that I am so very sorry for the lack of parenting and the heartache affecting your life. I just cannot understand because in my case it was exactly the love I had for my kids that led to my leaving the group among other things. I just could not put anything before them, and especially nonsense like what the F preaches.
However, in my personal case, I have to say that my father left when I was a child, and that my mother was/is practically insane. The fact that she could not care/love but would instead hurt me so much ws one of the factor that primed me for being recruited at such an young age (she is one of those Mommy Dearest kinds, you know, a cross between Faye Dunaway in Mommy Dearest and Carrie's mother in Carrie - and I am NOT kidding) so I KNOW what it is like not to find love and understanding, and instead find abusive behavior and neglect, where we should find it most. So, as limitedly as I can, I empathize.
You are an amazingly strong person and I hope you will find people on your path that can help your resilience.
How old is this brother? Are there any older people/friends in your life who can be influential with counseling/care etc? I really know little about you except what you posted here.
