well, here goes...

To me, it is very sad to see what the family has done in everyone's life that it has truly touched. I did leave in the interim time before the SGAs were more than first and second grade level. (The older ones). It is hard to be dealing with fall out from that time inside of my own and more fully comprehend what the fallout has been for the second generation. Well I have been doing that. I have read a lot and while I still believe that the damage done to all is atrocious, As a whole it is easy to see that those who still have members in the family or who left all their family behind (SGAs) and/or grew up with that sense of belonging to the crazy-ass family without ever having normal attachments would, as a whole be going thru so much more, collectively speaking. I understand that there would be a lack of trust towards FGAs in general. It is my hope that in the road to healing some have and will find "FGAs" who do not represent authority or family to them in that this is behind those former members. (Meaning not just leaving the group, but getting group thought out of their systems.) I know i have been out of that cult for a very long time. I was very angry and enraged towards the family, but stuffed those feelings in my efforts to try and survive for myself and my kids. When I found the boards for exers, there was alot of activity where anger was exploding all over towards the leaders of the family, and against some exers or part-timers who were still very family friendly. I felt right at home in the midst of that rage, but did not realize that most raging were SGAs! I don't think the fallout of abuse discriminates, but certainly SGAs are at the forefront of recovering from it and at the forefront of receiving so much as the family continued on its bizarre downward spiral into ever increasing insanity. So with this I would say, that when I was upset recently, it was not in perspective. I was in the middle of some of my crap and much came out sideways. I just hope the best for all those trying to get on their feet. I hope the head of the beast(family)is, figuratively speaking, decapitated, as soon as possible. I also hope that more and more resources will be available for all when that happens. I admire the way the SGAs have, and continue to stand strong and solid against the curse of the family, consistently breaking the spells with their intelligent sense of humor, line of Vandari products, and their many other talents and skills.