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In Reply to: Re: I am liberated - a touching story yesterday posted by Charlie on April 23, 2002 at 09:26:42:
Well, even though my life is still very hard because of what I call the fallout, :) I cannot even begin to explain what it feels like to go to sleep at night, in my own (small) room, in my bed. When reflecting on the difficulties I still 'marvel' on what I have NOW:
a room of my own
a mind of my own
a will of my own
a soul of my own
I even have TWO pillows. :) Nobody tells me when to wake up, what to eat, how to 'pray,' what to read. Nobody tells me where and with whom I should sleep, or have sex with. (YUCK)
Since I had never known anything different from slavery from my early teens (met the F before I turned 16 and before that I was in a very abusive and neglectful family) these are the thoughts that carry me through when things are tough. And they are tough most of the time. It may be sort of sad, or perhaps bittersweet, because so much of these 'little' things other people take for granted, but they has not been for granted in my life.
And lastly, it is the MEANING I can create, discover and attach to whatever happens in my life now that makes a difference.
