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We once thought we were "immortal"

Posted by Donny on November 17, 2002 at 15:13:42

In Reply to: Re: Jane is in the Hospital posted by Jesse H on November 17, 2002 at 09:40:23:

Yes, I'll pray for Jane too. I know what it's like to have a loved one sick, as my mother recently has a stroke. And Jane has children at home that need her, not to mention a husband and loved ones.

My mother's stroke and now Jane's serious illness has me thinking: we once thought we were the "rapture generation" and that we basicaly were going out to conquer the world and never die cause we'd all be taken out of this world in 1993 before we reached middle age. Yet now, here we are, middle aged and more, ten years after the due date, without our youthful idealism and without our youthful sense of immortality.

As our parent's generation starts getting seriously ill and dying, I think a lot of us are beginning to face our own mortality. In my case, my mother is only 20 years older than me so if I don't fare a lot better than her (I hope I do) I've got twenty years left at most. That's a sobering thought.

And now Jane's illness reminds us that our own middle aged generation, 45, 50 (and 55 the oldest of us), are also approaching the threshold of illness and encroaching old age. I hate to be so discouraging, folks, but it's maybe not discouraging but just sobering and helps us to sit down and prioritize things, job, career, health and loved ones.

I think Achieck wrote a beautiful thought on this a couple months ago, on enjoying life as she got older. I wish we could find that one and repost it. Frankly, when I was young, I never dreamed that the day would ever come that I'd be looking at growing older. I do know that I left the Family when approaching "mid life crisis" because some instinctive warning bells started going off.

I guess I knew that the Family alwasy threw the sick and handicapped and no-longer-useful members to the wolves, off the back of the sled, and I knew that the Family was definitely NOT a safe place to grow old in. So thank God for even that first crisis, cause it helped get me out of the Family.

Anyone else experience something similar?