I am very grateful for this site

It has been early 27 years since I left the family. Yet the impact on my life has been tremendous and long-term. I found my faith so
compromised that for a long time I could barely think about God much less have faith in Him. For such a long time I felt so alone because my
former husband (the shepard of the colony I joined) kept reminding me that I was failing not "The Family". I am so thankful for this site because
I am only beginning to understand what happened during my years with the COG and how much it affected other areas of my life after I left. It has only been in recent months that I have talked about this experience with people in a Christian Fellowhsip that I joined. It has been far easier to bury this experience and NEVER think about it than to deal with all the things that happened.

Does anyone else feel this way or dealt with it this way?