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In Reply to: Re: As you pray what you should do posted by Sam Ajemian on October 11, 2002 at 20:02:00:
Reading about Watchman and the hurts that have been experienced by different people, it is just SUCH a terrible tragedy. The one I am talking about, last I heard (CEPHAS)is in Marias inner circle now. Let me clarify that this was not a group ordeal, but where my "mate" and I had to sleep in the room with he and Shiloh because my mate had complained to leadership about my "problems" with sex. Ya see, my "mate" liked to get his at least daily and often more. I on the other hand was barely pg., had morning sickness, was discharging a bit of blood, and was not wanting it. This occurred in a room in a trailor parked out back. (overnight observation). So I was the one being "dealt with". Also, I began to hate my mate and it was rape to be forced to have sex with someone who has no regard for you and you do not want to have sex with. During that same time frame, just prior to this, I was dealt with by being pinned down on Cephas's bed and French kissed and told I better get the victory or I would have to do what later happened. In front of people in the home, Cephas would say humiliating things to me, like comments about my feet being big, or other things. (Good Lord, I am 5'10")and humiliation was routine with him. I know he gave Shiloh a black eye more than one time. What wonderful tip top leaders the f. has now!
On the other hand, if he had left the f. and apologized, I probably would have forgiven him. Especially if he had done half of what Watchman had done. I had been given Watchmans address and phone by a CAN leader (before Scientology took over that name) and I thought several times to call him, not because I was very close to him in the F. I wasn't. But because I knew he was out and having problems and was another exer like me, and would remember who I was. I never knew he would have committed suicide. Hindsight is 20:20, and there are many things many of us would have done had we known or realized what was to come.
What a healing and helping board this is getting to be, more and more each day. Thanks.
