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In Reply to: Re: Very well said! posted by goth88 on September 04, 2002 at 08:28:52:
Hi Goth!
Good points and appreciated..
I think a true sexual predator is like a relentless carnivore devoid of all values that do not pertain to the consumation of their prey. I also don't think they would ever accept real accountability, it is not in their nature.
For me I think I am accountable for some of what occurred in the family in that I followed and contributed to the problem. I should have rebelled against the lie of Berg a lot sooner. We should have jumped on him as soon as he started the sexual liberty doctrines. I did not abuse kids and eventually became a public enemy of the family. (You know my story.)
It has always been a heartache for me what happened and what Berg and the family really became. In some ways I have been able to have a reasonable life with work, home, family and friends. There were times when I felt that I should just get on my way and forget the whole mess. For some reason I would always run across the issue in one way or another.
I do not own everyone's bad behaviour but there is a collective responsibility I feel for me to accept as a former member and leader. It translates to the following personal code for me.
1. I should not forget the hurts and abuses that were done to many in the family, particularly Fg's.
2. I should honour the victims, those among us, passed on and yet to emerge. In my heart, I validate and recognize their suffering.
3. I should be ready to support and help those who are struggling to cope.
4. I should expose the family for what it was, is and will become. The lie must be dismantled.
5. I should use whatever abilities I have to help when called upon. I should try to do no harm where possible. (I confess if I ran across M&P I would do some harm. As Dan Acroyd said. " ...I have to go to prison now for my crimes and be some bad man's girlfriend!" haha) I don't consider attempting to dismantle the family harm.
I do not imply that others should do the same thing. It is my personal choice to feel this way about it. I don't think the issue will ever really go away as it impacted us all so deeply.
I really just want to be able to continue recovering with all my exer friends and family, old and new, and perhaps learn how to love and trust once again. At one time I believed in the revolution deep in my heart it is still very painful at times to know, without doubt, that it turned into an abusive lie that hurt thousands badly.
Sincerely
Rocky
