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In Reply to: Re: A few words on outrage posted by La Malinche on July 16, 2002 at 19:30:08:
Ok, that's fair enough...I'm sorry, I didn't realise that you were being sarcastic. I've met so many FGA's that would much rather not think about it (my parents being some of them), and I think that's the main reason that I failed to see any humor there.
As far as my saying that you "chose to join"...well...it's true. I'm sorry, but for whatever the reasons, people joined and stayed in even after seeing what a sadistic group it really was. Mabye they stayed for their children (who in the long run suffered because of it), or mabye they stayed in because they truly believed that the Family was "it". I know that many suffered, I know that many were hurt. But I also know that an adult is better able cope with pain and suffering than a child (at least most can). I myself was not raped as a child. Most of my issues were with the mental abuse. I was however raped when I was 16. I know so many that were raped when they were little, and knowing what a hard time I had as a young woman, I can't even fathom what a small child would have gone through! My heart doesn't break for myself or for those that were sexually hurt as teenagers/adults-it's the small defensless children, the ones that don't understand what's happening to them, the ones that don't understand why "uncle" hurt them. That victim group is who my heart goes out to. Yes, I'm angry that I had to go through what I did, but not nearly as angry as I am about what's been done to kids with no justice served.
I'm sorry that so many were hurt in the Family, I feel for all of you-I really do! My own mother has had numerous nervous/mental breakdowns since leaving (she's much better now by the way)-I have cried with her and I've cried for her. But most of my sypmathy lies with the little ones. Most of my anger is there because of sexual/mental/physical abuse that so many children suffered. That is why I need to hear an outcry of anger, that is why I need to see justice done. For my baby sister, for my best friend, for my brother!
And as far as the line between FGA's and SGA's...well...there is a line. The FGA's joined when they were young. The SGA's were born into it. FGA's saw another part of life outside of the Family. The SGA's saw Family life, and were told that the Family was IT. We had this instilled in us for our entire lives (until those of us that chose to leave, did) and even when we were "SGA's", we were still (in most cases) treated like children-like our opinions didn't matter, and we needed to follow and obey because "uncle/auntie/daddy" said so. There is a line between the feelings of the first and second generations. Yes, now we as SGA's are adults. We are responsible for our own lives-but at the same time, what we have always seen of the first generation (execpt for that rare "uncle" or "auntie" that we felt we bonded with) was a load of discipline (by them to us). I'm starting to come to the realization that no, not all of the FGA's were responsable (it's a hard thing to come to terms with), in fact I have a number of close friends (parental types) that are FGA's, but then, you live and learn. I'm sorry if I offended you with my post, it's just that some things tend to start me off, and I tend to blow. I do apologise for that!
