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In Reply to: Re: Hitler Berg, Jews (by "looking back as a survivor") posted by kerry on July 06, 2002 at 15:01:06:
Kerry, if I looked at your arm and saw a disfigured mole and I was sure it was melanoma, I would say, run, don't walk, today to your nearest doctor and get it cut out before it invades your whole system and kills you!
Now I will say to you, run, don't walk, to your nearest mainstream church, call someone that you can see in person, today. Call and seek until you can find someone, in person, outside of the family.
You have not missed any mark. You are a person with worth and value just for being you. The word can be used to heal or to kill. You need a healer right now. You need people who will surround you with love and concern without demand of your life or livelihood.
The family has destroyed so many. I felt wrong when I left. I felt like I was coming apart at the seams and that if I didn't get away, I would die. It took awhile to see that I was not the problem! What was problematic in me could be healed. I am still in the healing process. You need to get away to see it.
Wherever you are, I hope you pick up a phone, go to Salvation Army if you have to, go anywhere, but not the family.
When I first got out, I left with 2 suitcases, 3 kids and a guitar. I had no other possessions. I went to the Salvation Army and said that I needed coats for my kids. I had no money. They at first told me that they could only help the elderly and had limits, and could not help me. I was so desperate. I told them "Doesn't the bible say that if a man sees his brother in need and shuts off his compassion how dwells the love of God in you? You are Christians and my kids need coats. You get donations and you can't help us?" He went to speak to his sergeant and came back with a voucher for their thrift shop for about 150.00 dollars. I was able to get my kids coats and some clothes. I thanked him very much. I say all this to encourage you to let your desperation show, get help. It may be very hard at first, but YOU ARE WORTH IT.
Online, you can get the support of others via a computer, but I know you need more than that from what you write. Please get help! Where are you?
