love and marriage

Hi Everyone
WhenI met Shula I had been in the cog for 4 years. I was jailed in southern Mexico and deported to the States after 2 years in Mexico. My heart was troubled. I loved Mexico so much I never wanted to go back to the states. It felt like a bad dream.. It was winter 71 before December.
I ended up at the home there Garden Grove I think by Anihiem in Su Cal. It was there I met and fell in love with Shulamite, Shula. I had responsiblity at the home but I was a nobody in the cog california. My love for her was so strong it was wrongly assumed that I broke the cog rules and had sex with her. I was innocent a faithful brother and all of a sudden my love is out of it and I'm a gonner. I was ordered to go out alone and is this how you have to fight for your love? I left the cog with her with the idea to go back to latin america where we could serve the Lord which we did in El Salvaqdor, Nicaragua, and the Dominician Republic. WE were in charge of everywhere what a miracle. WE were only babes as all the leadership backslid. El Salvador,Nicaragua, but when we were in Managua it was a string and a prayer. Our first son Tim was born in Managua in 76. We were in charge of all these kids and bretheren. Wow and we were nobodys nothings, really we were. No bodys not important. but then the new leadership finally came. I had closed up the home in the city and got a little shack outside of the city because it was too much for all us us to survive.Getting rid of that terrible house that was such a burden. 100 percent oppisite to what was going on in the cog. We were working our buts off for the money that we had to send up so not paying that big rent felt good.
I was broken and told that Shula and I could hit the road in Nicarauga or live in the closet which was very big at the new luxioures home they rented. We backslid into hell and I worked to get money to go back tto the cog. This was in Kansas with her parents. At this time I felt like a radical missionary trying to survive in america.
We got together momey and without clearence wint to The Dominician Repbulic. This was in 77 and the cog was changing.
Thats when FFing and shareing all started to happen. A lot of bad things happened butI must say I met some beautiful brothers and sisters there.
That's when the letter came that you could go home and rest and work for awhile. We were needing money for a house on the beach of a little town and everything was going wrong. We went wittnessing and I remember feeling like ok sheep who has money to help us. We had 2 children then as Miguel was born in 78 at the DR in San Salvador. I thought what a horrible state we have fallin into. Then we left to her parents house in Kansas Theye were enemies of the cog but had 3 children in. Doug, Lucy, Hanna Bannana and Donna= Shula. I was working andwe were going to Alaska to get out of the city. We had touch with the cog and a brother whos wife left him needed help so we let him stay with us as we were concerened about him. We were IRFER'S. That's when it happened.
I lived every life after that never forgetting who I was because of the Bible.happened in 1980 Wow one point good the word. It has kept backsliding me through everything. A wife and drugs. Awife and rejoining the now Family in 89. Wow. That was scary. The babes course and now I have 8 kids and I'm back in the cog how happy you are folks. back in tne cog the cogg
David was now Dad. That was a little hard. The only time I saw his picture was the forbidden sneek look at Debras book. But watch out look over your shoulder.
I wrote a letter about IRFER'S Beware can't remember much but everyone was encouraging me to come out with Mo's opinnions. Whe n we finally left or the Family left us as were at my land in the mountians in Washington I was givin the ceremonial sword breaking as they took our letters and spiritual food awayfrom us as we were no longer trusted bretheren. How long does it take for someone to get over this?
Oh that's right I'm not that important.
Well here I am backslidden again read my bible daily. I used to read more of the basic. I'm excitded about wakeing up. Just spilling out a few htoughts.
Love you all
Kerry