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In Reply to: searching for truth posted by Mattkeeper (kerry) on June 08, 2002 at 23:16:32:
Though I can't relate to the exact situation you went through, I believe all of us here can relate to you cause of the extreme impact the message in Irfers beware had on us all. When my sister first left the group she couldn't sleep in a room alone, at 17, she was so afraid God was going to strike her dead, for the first year I was out I feared daily God would punish me through letting something terrible happen to my kids, the worst senarios running through my mind, kidnapping, rape, torture, brutal murder. It was a real and tangible fear and esp. bad at night. Then I began to get mad at God and told Him that if He ever punished me, do it to me and me alone, not through my kids cause they are innocent. Now I have come to the conclusion that the God portrayed by Berg is not the true God and that Berg truly and surely messed me up in my relationship with Him.
Being lost is a part of the recovery process, it takes time to get through it, as well as with anger and bitterness. But when all is said and done, it seems that most have gone on to find a life they enjoy and find the peace they are seeking. In a way I think we come out better at the end cause we are sure of our beliefs, sure of our religion, sure of our God and our relationship with Him, and very importantly, sure of our own strength and who we are.
