A Commentary on the RNR

Posted By: Rocky <>
Date: Tuesday, 21 May 2002, at 4:24 a.m.

In Response To: The RNR relieved us (cancion)

I wanted to respond to this RNR mystery. It may take awhile.

To begin with. Shortly after I joined the team in 72-73 I became a leader. I started as a colony shepherd and eventually became the Bishop of Western Canada and the NorthWest USA. I worked under Rufus and Andrew and Miriam who later became King's counsellors.

I want to say to you all that I am deeply sorry for all the brothers or sisters I offended, hurt, or was harsh with. I am totally ashamed of what I learned and did as a leader and I ask my fellow brothers and sisters for forgivenss. I never sexually abused any kids or was criminally sexually involved with anyone but I was sucked into the FF revolution for sure. Like you all, I saw the men and women I loved became pimps and whores "for god" and I did not act against these false doctrines until it was much too late.

I tried to be loving but I failed in so many ways to be accountable to the Word and I let MO's foolishness seduce me and I let down my family and those I loved and was responsible for to lead in the Lord. There are not many days that go by that I do not ask myself why I, as a middle level leader, did not stand up and mutiny against the false doctrines.

God help me! It took me over ten years to forgive myself for what happened. I would give a lot, maybe everything, to be able to turn back the clock in order to be able to go back do what was right but I cannot and I am so sorry for it.

No melodrama intended. What happened was a real sin I believe and some of our brothers and sisters have destroyed themselves and even committed suicide in their pain.

Points to consider:

- I beleive all the false stuff really moved into high gear after Madam M. DB got a hitchhiker alright - He got and evil spirit liken unto the spirit that afflicted Saul but only ten times worse.

- I know for a fact that sexual sharing happened long before it became family wide

- Don't kid yourselves. DB was always the boss. Like Stalin he purged the Rev leadership on a regular basis.

- Birthday warning was another pivitol letter. Litnessing happened and the money stared to pour in. We as shepherds sent millions up the food chain. I was a shepherd of a colony that got out more lit per capita that anyone else in North America for a long time. We were nuts with litnessing.

- With the huge income DB wanted to become an organization along corporate levels. The new Rev leadership structure supported that model. The old chain could not produce lit stats or economics. The newer smaller homes as a collective could. It also set up a wider platform of influence for the letters. The letters are the leaders I believe was the slogan at the time.

- Concurrent with this new structure, the sexual doctrines became more up front. In the meantime The Arthur series and all that entailed began. DB became incensed with the lack of follow through with the FF revolution and sharing. All of us toured our areas with leadership under direct guidance from DB. The group I went with was getting phone directions from leadership hanging with M&M. We had to discuss the FF revolution with every home and every member. DB was so intent on developing FFing that he did not care that it was a major stumbling block to us. I had a melt down and left for awhile just before the RNR. I had no strength to make it out of the family and I came back into the Wild West of the RNR. My wife was with another brother, everybody was fucking everyone else, there was hooking, escorts, VD, no direction, kids with no fathers all over the place etc, etc,. The letters kept getting heavier weirder.

- Let me tell you plainly. Old DB new exactly what was going on. The RNR happened because DB wanted control. He wanted FFing and he wanted large amounts of cash and he wanted to feel vindication for his sexual doctrines.

- He authored, developed and manipulated every chain of leadership there ever was in the family. His faithful scribe noted every resistant point, and was heavily involved in helping DB purge ranks. Almost every single leader that ever worked close to those two melted down or were fired at one time or another. He manufactured bird dogs, dobermans and hatchet carriers in an endless cycle and when he was done with each of them they went to the scrap heap or recycling bin for their sins.

VS's,Cro"s and all the other leaders that came along happened because the RNR nearly bankrupted the family. The wild west sexual revolution was free and easy and hard on the WS pocketbook. DB could not go back to the old "chainsaw" so he developed another food chain version.

-If you want to believe he ever changed the chain for the rank and file you certainly can I suppose. I will tell you, however, why I doubt this. DB was convincing because he actually believed what he said moment to moment. It did not occur to him to consider if it was inconsistent because he could not always remember with clarity or accurate recall what he believed from year to year. This was not evident for a some time because his scribe was able to keep a semblance of order by walking him through the fine points of his own doctrines when necessary.

- In my opinion DB was actually a very poor administrator with few leadership qualities. He bounced from pole to pole with revolutions and counter revolutions at the drop of a phone call. He never allowed the structure to catch up with itself and become stable. His retention rate was low and he was not solution oriented. As leaders we ran in circles for years under his constant emotionally driven, illogical and harsh changes. He was never self examining of himself, his methods or his own motives. He also never sat down and counted the cost of building a structure like the wise man in the bible. As a result I think he became like Dr. Frankenstien creating a monster made from so many ill-fitting parts that the creature we became was horrific and unable to function in truth.

- I think DB himself was given the spirit of insanity for his sins. Like the old testament Kings and Prophets he identified with, the Lord visited upon him the fruit of the evil king he became.

- His sins caused him to become detestable in the eyes of the Lord. Like Saul, Jeroboam, Solomon and others he he did that which was evil in the eyes of the Lord and followed other Gods or sought out foul spirits. From what I understand he had little peace and died a drunken wreck.

- The sad thing is that his sins turned us into shrine temple prostitutes and whores and we fell into worshipping Gods of flesh and gold just like Israel, Judah and other tribes did in Kings and Chronicles.

- In 1983 when I finally looked at the Davitito Book and I knew that DB was into the sexual abuse of children it was the end for me. I was a victim of sexual abuse as a boy and what DB was doing totally crushed me for a long time. I wanted to die it hurt me so much to realize what he was visiting upon us and the horror that was sure to follow.

- I must say that I believe that God is able to restore us all and that he will give back what years the locusts have eaten.

- Sorry for the length but I cannot help myself. This is from my heart to yours. Take it for what it is worth

PS: To Joel. I don't always understand you Joel but I read your classes from a babe on up and I respect you pretty much. You know more Word than any living person I know of including a whole lot of very learned preachers.

- I beleive with all my heart that this is very serious buisness what happened to us all. You got to help us brother! I would ask you to speak plainly about DB's status in relation to the Word in the Bible. I have no ability to argue with you but you could help so much through the Word to educate us on what went wrong! Brothers and sisters among us are losing large portions of their lives because of all the twists and turns.