Posted by simply she on August 16, 2003 at 18:18:51
In Reply to: How's your sex life? posted by Researcher on July 20, 2003 at 02:04:00:
(1) Are you and FG or born into TF?
FG
(2) How long have you been out?
Since the early 90s.
(3) How has your attitude toward sex changed since leaving (if at all)?
Like researcher, at first I was still under the spell of TF having an ultra liberal no boundaries sort of attitude towards sex. Darn promiscuous, in short. Only through professional therapy, has all that changed quite drastically. I started valuing myself and my body more and only have sex with partners that I share a mutual respect and love for. Though I can say that I can enjoy sex for the mere pleasure of it (sans the love and other considerations), I choose not to anymore. I have grown out of my former warped mental cocoon and now view sex as an expression of responsible love that can be enjoyed blissfully and peacefully within boundaries. No more guilt or endless justifications.
(4) Did you consider your sex life healthy and normal while you were in TF?
Like Observer, within the framewrok of an unnatural setting, I had a super healthy, very active sex life.
(5) How do you view your sex life in TF now that you have left?
I can see that I was too eager to please my masters and obeyed without question even overriding my instincts warning me of the wrongness of it all. I agree with female respondent, the sex wasn't free at all. It was enforced on me using scripture as the hook. The rare times that I had love feelings for my sex partner, the minute leadership found out, I'd never have another appointment with him. Sex was reduced to an animalistic function, devoid of deep emotions except carnal passions, whose sole purpose was to manufacture more disciples, keep the women in bondage and satisfy men's lusts. Quite basal and primitive when you think about it.
(6) What difficulties (if any) did you experience with what TF taught or enforced regarding sex?
see above
(7) What difficulties (if any) have you experienced since leaving as a result of what TF taught or enforced regarding sex.
The difficulties adjusting to a more natural and socially acceptable setting were aplenty. But they are all part of an unfortunate journey where I made the wrong choices and suffered the consequences, emotional, psychological, sexual, not to mention all the physical trouble I got (stds galore, damn) that have repercussions to this day. I'll have to live that down, but it's all in the past and I am moving on.
(8) Was sex ever part of the motivation (be honest!) for your joining or staying in TF?
No. I didn't know about it until after my babes training (that's how trusting and naive I was!)
(9) Did you have any concerns that you would not be able to enjoy the sexual freedoms you had in TF if you left?
No, it was more a relief for me not to have to keep fucking strange men I had no feelings for or fucking familiar men I loathed.